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Brazil vs Singapore

2008-08-06T20:18:00.001+08:00

I've been soooo bz lately, don't even have time to blog. Physio, get my bike done, etc. Nieway I was one of those lucky few who manage to catch Brazil Olympic team vs Singapore.

Though it was a boring 1st half display by Singapore, I can't say the same for their 2nd half performance. If Brazil gave Singapore a samba football, Singapore gave them our very own spicy sambal soccer. Hard bone cracking tackle, nice passes and even some nice silky skill. Maybe Singapore showed too much respect to the Brazilian team during the 1st half. Bet if Singapore played like what they did during the 2nd half, I bet the score will be a bit different.

Well the crowds were great, get to see the Kallang wave maybe for the last time before they tear the national stadium down. I even spotted an enemy spy. Most probably taking notes about Brazil danger man. Hahaha

Aerosmith - I Don't want to miss a thing

2008-07-14T01:07:00.001+08:00

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing

Watch you smile while you are sleeping

While you're far away dreaming

I could spend my life in this sweet surrender

I could stay lost in this moment forever

Every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure

Don't want to close my eyes

I don't want to fall asleep

Cause I'd miss you baby

And I don't want to miss a thing

Cause even when I dream of you

The sweetest dream will never do

I'd still miss you baby

And I don't want to miss a thing

Lying close to you feeling your heart beating

And I'm wondering what you're dreaming

Wondering if it's me you're seeing

Then I kiss your eyes

And thank God we're together

I just want to stay with you in this moment forever

Forever and ever

Don't want to close my eyes

I don't want to fall asleep

Cause I'd miss you baby

And I don't want to miss a thing

Cause even when I dream of you

The sweetest dream will never do

I'd still miss you baby

And I don't want to miss a thing

I don't want to miss one smile

I don't want to miss one kiss

I just want to be with you

Right here with you, just like this

I just want to hold you close

Feel your heart so close to mine

And just stay here in this moment

For all the rest of time

Don't want to close my eyes

I don't want to fall asleep

Cause I'd miss you baby

And I don't want to miss a thing

Cause even when I dream of you

The sweetest dream will never do

I'd still miss you baby

And I don't want to miss a thing

Don't want to close my eyes

I don't want to fall asleep

I don't want to miss a thing

Part One: If I was Bruce Wayne

2008-07-12T02:03:00.001+08:00

5 more days to go before the official opening of Batman: The Dark
Knight the movie. I can't wait to catch it. This will be one movie I'm
not gonna miss. My all time favorite hero Batman. Why hero well he
ain't got super powers like superman or the fantastic 4 so he is not
under the superhero category. His dark image is so cool not forgetting
his hi tech gadgets at least better then a superhero who wear underwear
outside and his pants inside at the same time wearing a shirt size S.
His alter ego Bruce Wayne is like totally opposite. Charming, humorous
and a lady killer aka Casanova. Not to forget his unlimited supply of
cash.

The villains are also super cool and creepy, like my all
time fav the Joker. Lets not leave out, penguin, two face, scarecrow
and the sexy cat woman.

If I was Bruce Wayne

If I have the spending power of Bruce Wayne and living in Singapore I definitely purchase these things.

House

I would love to own a British Colonial House like this. Peaceful, its a perfect place for me to retreat after a long hard day at work. Plus in ensure some privacy for me. At least I know my neighbors won't be complaining to HDB or LTA each time I start my Harleys'. No 'mat motor' or young bicycle punks stealing my bikes' parts. Nor will there be worries that someone will vandalize my bikes. The surrounding environment also makes it perfect for a romentic candle light dinner with my date or a morning breakfast in the bed with her.

Renovated colonial bungalow

Pool surrounded by plants

Spacious patio

Large living

Master bedroom with attached
bathroom

Bedroom

Spacious & modern kitchen

Master bathroom with long bath

Common bathroom with shower

Colonial bungalow with large
ground

Car porch at entrance

Side patio with garden

Garden at the side

Spacious living and dining
area

Renovated
Kitchen

Patio at the back facing pool

Pool with timber sun deck

Huge garden at the back

Within the walls of my room

2008-07-10T15:21:00.003+08:00

I was doing some thinking during this period of recuperating. 1stly about my bike. With a heavy heart, I was thinking of selling my darling Elaine, Suzuki GSXR 400 for a Gilera VXR. Its actually due to the fact that I can't ride my GSXR 400 for at least 6mth that is what my doc said due to the position of the leg. 6mth no transport ouch.
Its hard for me to part away from her esp since I had many memories with her. On the contrary, getting a Gilera VXR '07 do enable me to have my own transport. I should be able to ride it within 3 mths. Of cause it depends on how much installment i need to pay for it. Its fuel mileage and cost of maintaining it. I'm wiling to get a Gilera provided its installment is around the $150+ zone. If not its not worth it as my GSXR finished her installment. I just have to fork out money for her maintainability and fuel consumption.

Anyway my sales blog have been set up, though not officially open for business yet, its url is already ready. its http://weblog.xanga.com/CaseyRockstar or you can e mail me at caseyrockstar@rock.com.

Update Update!

2008-07-08T21:45:00.002+08:00

5 days have went by since my operation. Nothing much really happen I mean its not like I could run or play soccer again suddenly. The medication given to me is a knock out. Put me to sleep like a baby. Wonder Tongkat Ali can help me regain my strength... Oh wait that is for another type of strength. Yesterday physio therapy was energy sapping, exhausting and painful. But no complaints. Like they say no pain no gain. I was super hungry after the physio, worst my leg was also hurting like hell could barely walk back home.

Today my nurse made me a wonderful meal. Corn beef with bread YUMMY!!!. Its was so delicious that I finish the whole pan by myself. I also installed a great tag called ScribeFire from FireFox. It really make my blogging more simple and efficient. I'll just type when I'm having my inspiration without actually having to go to blogger.com, sign in and waiting for the page to load. Its also makes it easy for me to cut and paste certain information from other webpage. You guys should try it.

I'm rotting to death. Hate not doing anything. I may be disabled but I ain't dead. Disability is just a physical state. My brain is still working well. Was thinking of starting a small home based business thru blog. Most probably selling eco friendly products. I always wanted to do something 'Green' for the environment. I'm learning for other sucessful bloggers on this. Most likely I'm opening a new blog site just for this linking to this blog. Support me ya guys.

I'm Back After My Ops

2008-07-05T01:26:00.003+08:00

Day 1 3/7/08 of my Ops

Finally I'm back after my Ops. It was a great experience, I have to admit that I was a bit nervous when I was laying down on the operation bed especially the general anesthetic part. I was afraid I would wake up during the procedure or worst not waking up anymore but thankfully, nothing bad happened. In fact, it felt like I was just taking a short nap before I realize that the ops was over.

I was still drowse due to the medication, I tend to fall asleep after a few minutes of waking up, most of what had happened during the period of recovery I can't really recalled. I came to know that the 1st thing I asked for was to eat at Arnold at City Plaza. I must have been very hungry haha. Can you believe it the 1st thing I think of is food!

I was also introduce to my 1st physio therapy session. Through that session I learn to appreciate simple task like bending my knees. It was tough and exhausting not to forget sleepy. I was like dozing off after every exercise. Sweet Bobo was there to motivate me though waking me up each time I doze off.

Back at home my friends and cousin came and visited me. I even got the game that I wanted so much Football Manager 2008 and of cause two boxes of Pokey.

Day 2 4/7/08

I'm so proud of myself. I bath and bought food all by myself. It took me almost 2 hours just to go and come back from lunch mind you its take away and IMM is like just a 5 min walk away from my house. It was also an eye opener for me. During my journey there there are kind souls who sympathies my pain and suffering, they offered to help me but I turned them down politely as I know I can managed. But there are also people who are inconsiderate and selfish. One incident is that I was climbing down the stairs when I dropped my packet of food. Instead of helping me pick up the food, this Indian guy just looked and remain sited. I was pissed deep in my heart I wanted to bash him up with my crutches but well its not worth it. Mind you I'm not against any races, cause the person who helped me crossed the road was also another Indian person and I'm very grateful of her. Thus its not about the person skin colour, race or religion but more to their own personal character.

I came down with a fever but my nurses were there to take care of me giving me medication and attend to my every needs. My clumsy Bro hurt my leg twice but I'm touched with his sweetness. He bought me food and his GF bought me some golden Kiwi. One of my fav fruits!! The pain is on off and I spend most of my time sleeping due to the medication.

Tomorrow my Ops day!

2008-07-02T12:58:00.004+08:00

It have been a while since I last update my blog. Well actually quite a number of stuff happened that kept me away from my blog. 1st my NEW laptop crashed possibly due to virus. Well got a new one 2 weeks later. 2nd I was super busy with work saving up $$$ before I got for my Ops. Finally I get a day off for myself today. Get to do my final prep b4 my ops and rest my body at the same time.

I'm still torn between as Suzuki GSX-R 750cc and a Yamaha R6. Btw my fren Rain SMS me asking me to join the Track Day at Pasir Gudang and I was like arrrrhhhh dammm I have to give this a miss due to my Ops. And he hv sold his Yoshi pipe for GSX R 400 darn. I wanted it sooooo bad.

ST12 - Aku masih sayang

2008-06-25T21:27:00.000+08:00

Kau rinduku, jiwaku indah memanggil dirimu
Mataku terbangun untuk menanti
Menantimu...
Jangan pernah kau ragukan cinta yang sesungguhnya
Itu bisa menghancurkan semua
Bukan begitu...

Aku sungguh masih sayang padamu
Jangan sampai kau meninggalkan aku
Begitu sangat berharga dirimu
Bagiku...
Dan kupastikan saja dihatimu
Kan kukorbankan semuanya untukmu
Sungguh kuberharap kaupun begitu
Padaku...

Coba kau rasakan cinta yang begitu kan
Mengesankan...
Yakin pasti dapatkan kemesraan yang penuh
Cinta...

You always be my baby - David Cook Ver.

2008-06-02T17:34:00.002+08:00

we were as one babe
for a moment in time
and it seemed everlasting
that you would always be mine
now you want to be free
so I'm letting you fly
cause i know in my heart babe
our love will never die,no!

you'll always be a part of me
i'm a part of you indefinitely
Gal don't you know you can't escape me
ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
and we'll linger on
time can't erase a feeling this strong
no way you're never gonna shake me
ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

i ain't gonna cry no
and i won't beg you to stay
if you're determined to leave gal
i will not stand in your way
but inevitably you'll be back again
cause ya know in your heart babe
our love will never end no
you'll always be a part of me
i'm part of you indefinitely
Gal don't you know you can't escape me
ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
and we'll linger on
time can't erase a feeling this strong
no way you're never gonna shake me
ooh darlin cause you'll always be my baby

i know that you'll be back gal
when your days and your nights get a little bit colder ooohhh
i know that,you'll be right back,
oh, baby believe me it's only a matter of time
of time

you'll always be a part of me
i'm part of you indefinitely
Gal don't you know you can't escape me (ooooohhhhhh)
ooh darlin cause you'll always be my baby
and we'll linger on (and we will linger on)
time cant erase a feeling this strong (ohhhh)
no way you're never gonna shake me (oh baby)
ooh darlin cause you'll always be my baby

you'll always be a part of me (yeah yeah oooohhhh)
i'm part of you indefinitely (oooohhhh)
Gal don't you know you can't escape me (ooooohhhhhh)
ooh darlin cause you'll always be my baby (no no)
and we'll linger on (you and I will always be)
time cant erase a feeling this strong
no way you're never gonna shake me
ooh darlin cause you'll always be my baby

Seribu Tahun

2008-05-29T18:49:00.000+08:00

Seribu Tahun - Imran Ajmain

Relaku menunggumu seribu tahun lama lagi
Tapi benarkah hidup aku akan selama ini
Biar berputar ke arah selatan ku tak putus harapan
Sedia setia

Relaku mengejarmu seribu batu jauh lagi
Tapi benarkah kaki ku-kan tahan sepanjang jalan ini
Biar membisu burung bersiulan terlelah gelombang lautan
Ku masih setia

Adakah engkau tahu… ini cinta
Adakah engkau pasti… ini untuk selama-lamanya

Relaku menunggumu seribu tahun lama lagi
Tapi benarkah hidup aku akan selama ini… yeah…
Biar berputar utara selatan ku tak putus harapan
Sedia setia

Jangan putus harapan… sedia setia……

Perfect score for my prediction

2008-05-22T22:33:00.000+08:00

The month of May can never be more perfect. With my 1st prediction that Man United lifting the Champions came true in the wee hours of the morning, David Cook winning the American Idol was the icing on the cake.

David Cook deserve to win it. Not that David Archuleta's voice is bad, its just that personally, I feel David Cook is a better performer. He have his individuality, own style and a sexy rocker voice.

European Kings!

2008-05-22T12:10:00.000+08:00

The month of May can never be better for me. Though it is full of bitter sweet memories, I think its more sweet then bitter. 1st I got a deserving off day for 10 days from work away from my arch enemy. 2ndly I gotten my self a fossil watch at a bargin price ( can't get that price from its agent ) 3rd winning 1st place in my school soccer compitition. 4th passed my class 3 and 2 Driving licence on the same day ( mind the fact that it took me 12 days to attain my class 2 licence ) Gotten a new laptop as my advance B'day present and of coz Man utd winning the Champions League and Premier League.

It was worth staying up the whole night watching Man Utd and Chelsea match. I think my whole neighbourhood shouted when Christiano Ronaldo scored the 1st goal and I could hear mixture of curses from united fans and joy from the Chelsea fans when Chelsea capitalised before the 1st half ended. During the penalty shootout I nearly got a heart attack when Christiano Ronaldo missed the penalty kick. Of all the players, not many united fans expected him to missed. Well actually I did, especially after he missed the penalty kick during the Barcelona match. The best moments came when Van Der Saar made a suberb save from Anelka's penalty kick as my whole neighbourhood rock with cheers and jeers. Imagine 6am instead of waking up due to alarm clocks ringing, non soccer fans are awoken by the cheers and jeers of United and Chelsea fans. Finally after almost 10 years of wait, Man Utd won the Champions League again! I was almost in tears briming in pride and joy. Fanatic? Well not to the extreme that I decorate my room with united flags and jersey nither do I own a united jersey. But its the club in my heart that matters. I guess I could feel the joy they are feeling after their hours of hard work on and off the pitch. Them winning brought back memories of me lifting the trophy when my team won my school soccer compitition 4 days ago.

Like United players pics being published in newspapers, sport magazines, websites and blogs, my team too as our pics are displayed on posters all across the schools. Now gals from my school start to recognised me " Aren't you the guy in the poster who won our school soccer comp? " Hmmmm so pai seh.... hehehe

Now I'm just left with waiting for the result show of tonight American Idol. I really hope David Cook will win but looking at young David's fan base, I think its gonna be hard for David Cook to win it.

2 Important Events that make me gonna stay at home

2008-05-21T12:04:00.000+08:00

Finally the season finale of American Idol. I'm crossing my fingers that David Cook will win this year American Idol. From a rocker to a rocker. We even got the same lucky coin necklace. I don't know who got it 1st but I received mine before American Idol started. It was my lucky charm given by someone who used to be special to me. It really is lucky. I scored a goal in every game during the comp ( also due to my magic shoes ) I passed both my driving TP so ya see its so lucky.

2ndly its the Champions League Finale. Man Utd against Chelsea. I hope Alex and his boys can shut Chlesea mouth for once. Let their Chelsea owner bite his finger nails and cursing himself. Also to prove in soccer money can't buy sucess. Its about teamwork, heart, believe, courage, determination and the act of selflessness for the team. Will the 10yrs wait to lift the Champions League Cup be finally over?

Over You

2008-05-21T12:01:00.001+08:00

Now that it’s all said and done
I can’t believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down
Like an old abandoned house
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath
I felt as if I was in way to deep
Guess I let you get the best of meeee

(Chorus)
Well I never saw it coming
I should have started running
A long, long time agooo!
And I never thought I’d doubt you
I’m better off without you
More than you, more than you know
I’m slowly getting closure
I guess it’s really over
I’m finally gettin’ better
Now I’m picking up the pieces
From spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
‘Cause the day I thought I’d never get through
I got over you!!!
(End Chorus)

You took a hammer to these walls
Dragged the memories down the hall
Packed your bags and walked away
There was nothing I could say,
And when you slammed the front door shut
A lot of other’s opened up
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for meee

(Chorus)
Well I never saw it coming
I should have started running
A long, long time agooo!
And I never thought I’d doubt you
I’m better off without you
More than you, more than you know
I’m slowly getting closure
I guess it’s really over
I’m finally getting’ better
Now I’m picking up the pieces
From spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
‘Cause the day I thought I’d never get through
I got over you!!!
(End Chorus)

I never saw it coming
I should have started running
A long, long time agooo
And I never thought I’d doubt you
I’m better off without you

And I never saw it coming
I should have started running
I’m finally getting better
Now I’m picking up the pieces
From spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
And I got over you!!!
And I got over you!!!
And I got over you!!!

The day I thought I’d never get through
I got over you…

I ain't perfect for you

2008-05-21T11:50:00.000+08:00

Hey Gal
Look at me,
Think back and talk to me.
Did our relationship goes according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time
Doin' things I wanna do?
But it hurts when you dissaprove all along.

And now I tried hard to make it,
I just want to make you proud.
I'm never gonna be good enough for you,
Can't pretend that I'm alright
And you cant change me

*Chorus*
Cuz we lost it all,
Nothing lasts forever.
I'm sorry i cant be
Perfect
Now its just too late,
And we cant go back.
I'm sorry I cant be
Perfect

I try not to think about the pain i feel inside,
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All days you spent with me
Now seem so far away,
And it feels like you don't care anymore
and now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud.
I'm never gonna be good enough for you.
I cant stand another fight,
And nothings alright

*Chorus*

Nothings gonna change the things that you said,
Nothings gonna make this right again.
Please dont turn your back,
I can't believe its hard just to talk to you
but you dont understand

*Chorus* X 2
Now its just too late,
And we cant go back
I'm sorry i can't be
Perfect

20 May

2008-05-21T02:31:00.000+08:00

I've finally did it! I've gotten all three short term goals. I've done a treble. 3 titles within a week. 1st was my soccer team winning 1st that was like winning a FA cup, 2nd was passing my class 2 licence ( like winning the Champions League Cup ) and finally passing my class 3 licence ( its like winning the Premier League and yes I won you Surya! You got to treat me out since I got my licence before you ).

It was a nerve wreaking day for me. That feeling never seems to fade eventhough I've taken my TP tests lots of time from class 2B, 2A and now class 2 and 3. Thank god I've passed and I've now almost complete my licence. Left bus, class 4, 5 and boat licence. At least the important licences are done so the pressure is not that immensed.

My day wasn't all beautiful, amid my celebrations, old wounds was reopen, I wouldn't want to elebroate about it though no point coz it will just make me feel down and neither do I want to bad mouth those people. Nieway I've changed my url so that they won't hurt me again. Nieway I dedicate two song which I'm gonna post soon.

By the way I would like to take this opportunity to thank those who have supported me and believe me when other have doubts in me. Now I'm living my dream. Things are finally getting better for me.

One title in the bag another two to go

2008-05-19T14:06:00.000+08:00

Finally my team won 1st in the soccer compitition! My last comp before I rest for 6mth due to my operation. Did my job scoring one goal in every game hmm like Christiano Ronaldo thanx to my magic shoe. My best game in the whole comp must be during the semi finals where my team against our own 11 aside team mates. We have been playing together for the past 10 years knowing each other strength and weakness. Scoring in that game, sliencing my critics and shutting off their danger man.

The guys also had a great time flirting with my schoolmates. Those beautiful gals frm business course and design school. Too bad I'm too focus on winning the cup to even noticed those gals.

Result:
1st Game
Underdogs 5 - 0 JC Utd

2nd Game
Underdogs 4 - Tai Chi Quan 0

Semi final
Underdogs 4 - Next Team 2

Final
Underdogs 4 - Tai Chi Quan 0

With my job 1/3 done now for my other 2 cup to win. Tomorrow is the big day. 20th May

My Team. Team Famous ( Underdogs and next team taking pic together )

One last time

2008-05-17T07:59:00.000+08:00

8.00am - Blog Enterie

An hour to go before my soccer compitition will commerce. Right now I'm blogging to let out any negetive feelings be it sadness, anger, confusion, etc that may affect my commitment to the game. I have to win coz this willbe my last compitition before my operation. Nothing but a 110% dedication and effort. Time for me to go will update after the comp.

Usah Lepaskan

2008-05-17T00:30:00.000+08:00

Yang terindah
Terlukis di bibir mu
Tak pernah ku lihat senyum mu
Sebegitu
Pudar kah sudah cinta yang ku beri
Berwarna warni segala
Yang dijanjikan ia

Chorus
Usah biarku bersendirian
Usah biar hati mu di tawan
Usah biar diri ku di sini
Seorang menunggu tanpa teman

Usah lepas genggaman tangan mu
Usah biar semua berlalu
Usah terlupa perasaan hati
Pertama kali kita bertemu

Usah lepaskan

Bridge
Tak mudah ku melupa segala yang berlalu
Ku ingin selalu bersama mu

Repeat Chorus

Ku tak peduli apa sebabnya
Engkau dan dia harus bersama
Mendungnya langit bila berkata
Kita patutnya masih bercinta
Usah lepaskan

Usah lepaskan
Usah lepaskan

Yang terindah
Terlukis di bibir mu
Tak pernah ku lihat senyum mu
Sebegitu

Siapakah Diriku Di Sisimu

2008-05-16T10:47:00.000+08:00

Hembusan angin bagai membawa berita
Berita yang mengecewakan ku
Apa yang terjadi bukan yang ku impikan
Namun ku tabahkan hati ini

(Bridge)
Sayangku…ku tahu kau tak ingin begini
Tapi kau sanggup lakukannya
Betapa hatiku hancur musnah berderaian
Tidak seorang pun yang memahami
Hati dan perasaanku

(Korus)
Kerna cintaimu ku jadi begini
Kerna sayangkan mu ku telan semua
Betapa hebatnya kau di hati ini
Kenapa kau tak pernah fikirkan aku (hatiku)
Kenapa si dia jadi pilihanmu
Ku sedar siapa diriku di sisimu (hatimu)
Di sisimu…

Ku harap suatu hari kau kan mengerti kasih
Siapa diriku di sisimu
Pengorbananku bagai tak pernah dihargai
Ia bagai angin yang berlalu

(Ulang bridge & korus 2x)

Rimas

2008-05-15T23:51:00.000+08:00

Lari, lari, lari
Aku lari tingalkan semua ini
Untuk mencari, cari, cari
Ketenangan diri

Pergi, pergi, pergi
Engkau pergi dari hidupku ini
Ku tak mahu, mahu
Engkau hadir dalam diri ini

Keluhan hatiku tak siapa yang tahu
Ku simpan semua sebak di dada
Biar ku yang terluka
Pernahkah kau mengerti caraku memujukmu
Pernahkah kau hargai caraku mencintaimu

Lafaskan kata dari bibir
Adakahnya dari hati
Mungkin kau tak fahami maksudnya yang tersembunyi
Titisan air mata dari pipi ke bumi
Pernahkah kau peduli betapa sedih diriku ini

(Korus)
Mengapa
Aku yang terluka
Aku yang merana
Aku yang menahan sisa baki cinta ini
Engkau yang meminta
Aku yang sengsara
Rimas, rimas aku rimas

Rap
Tidak pesona kecundang
Istana jiwa ku goyang
Roboh dan tumbang
Sawan ku lantang
Tidak berpantang
Letupnya siang-siang
Bukannya alang-kepalang datangnya perang
Dan bawa ku ke jurang
Pulanglah sayang janji ku tatang
Ku hapuskan dalang
Dalangnya sayang
Sayangnya hilang
Hilanglah garang
Garang ku Terbang melayang
Terbongkang ku terbangkau terhoyong-hayang
Tak pandang belakang
Terkangkang kira ku tak diundang ku rapuh
Semua tak bertiang janji ku kini kan berulang

(Ulang korus)

Lari lari aku
Lari tinggalkan
Tinggalkan semua ini
Untuk mencari
Untuk mencari ketenangan
Aku pergi tinggalkan
Tinggalkan kau sendiri
Ku pergi, kini ku pergi
Tinggalkanmu

(Ulang korus 3x)

Just black and white

2008-05-14T23:34:00.000+08:00

My heart have beating abit strangely since I got back from IMM with my parents. If translate in malay "Tak sedap hati" in fact, if I'm right its before I went to IMM but it got stronger after that. I do not know exactly what is the reason to this feeling, but I roughly know who caused it. Can it be? Can it be resulted due to two people feelings still strong for each other? I still choose not to believe what this heart is saying even though time and time again it have proved its accuracy. Like they say seeing is believing.

I've been feeling something is amissed lately, like incomplete. I don't know what it is and no idea where to start looking. Its like I'm missing another half, execpt that I pretend or at least just brush aside any feelings I'm having.

If I'm to choose a bird to describe me, I'm just like a swan. Elegant, classy, confident and calm when people see it, but beneath the water, its legs continue to paddle hard. Just like my life. No matter how F*#% up life can be, never loose my cool. Smile and laugh, don't show to people around me that I'm suffering.

I learnt a lesson today. Its the same mistake I had made before, trusting the wrong person. I learnt that there are people around me who are two headed snakes. Infront of me, they show empthy, support and all the good stuff you expect from a friend. They even go so far to dissed the people who hurt me. But behind me, they are the opposite. Some can even go so far to destroy any relationship weather its a friendship or a love story. That its why it normally take me time to open up or being transparent. Its not easy trying to open up at the same time fearing to get hurt.

Will Utd do a double? Will I do it too?

2008-05-14T11:07:00.000+08:00

As everyone knows Man Utd have won the English Premier League 07/08 season. What would add an iceing to the cake is them winning the Champions League in Moscow. Not only will they do the doubles, beating Chelsea will be a sweet revenge after United lost to them previously in the league match.

I'm still in cloud 9, its hard to believe but I've completed my class 2 lessons in 2 days and my TP test is pushed foward to 20th May 08. So I'll be doing two test on that day one in the morning and another in the afternoon. Its like the final match of English Premier League where either I win the League or will I bring home empty handed and at the same time reaching the Champions League Final. Just like Man Utd.

Its A Race Against Time

2008-05-13T15:05:00.000+08:00

3rd Of July the day that I'll be going for my ops. I have to settle all my unfinished business by then. Debts to settle, test to cleared and savings to save. So far everything is going to plan. My $200 debt should be settled by early next month, around 3 more weeks ( would have settled if wasn't for my bike gotten vandalise ) My two tests 20 May 08 ( my 2nd attempt ) and 3rd June 08 ( 1st attempt for class 2 )

If everything goes to plan, I'll be doing my ops in peace. So dear God help me in this please. Gosh its like watching this season English Premier League where Man Utd and Chelsea are neck to neck. Thank God Man Utd won the title. Now its the Champions League left to bring back home.

2008 Top 6 MotoGP Hunks

2008-05-10T03:29:00.001+08:00

To be honest, I've haven't really got the time to catch all of the motoGP races for this season due to my work commitment. But I do really hope I get to watch this year MotoGP at Sepang and maybe just maybe if F1 is a sucess in Singapore, maybe the govt would bring motoGP to S'pore.

Anyway lets get straight down to the point. Ladies, you may have your own top 6 MotoGP hunks and you may voice out your opinion. Hey not to worry, I'm open to opinions after all beauty is in the eyes of the beholder. I'm also hearing whisper, "Hmmm is he gay?" Well I'm not unfortunately or fortunately ( dat depends ) I'm just a keen admirer of beauty, wheather its people, animals, nature, places and the list goes on and on. People watching is one of my hobbies.

Ladies and Gents, I Casey Rockstar would like to present to you the Top 6 MotoGP Hunks of the Year.

The Guy Next Door Goes to

The Aussie: Casey Stonner from Team Ducati Marlboro

The cutie aka Baby Face Assisint goes to

The Spainard: Dani Pedrosa From Team Honda Repsol

Mr Romantic goes to

The Frenchman: Randy De Puniet From Team LCR Honda

Mr Badboy Player Look goes to:

The Kentucky USA kid: Nicky Hayden from Team Honda Repsol

Mr Man Hunt Goes to

The Land of Great Britan: James Toseland from of Team Yamaha Tech 3

And Finally Mr Prince Charming goes to

Spain: Toni Elias From Team Ducati Alice

Now that the result is out, any disapproval?

I ain't gonna fight fire with fire

2008-05-05T12:52:00.000+08:00

Just recently my bike was vandalise. Its Radiator was purposly damage causing water to leak out of it. My bike setting was toggled resulting in an improper percentage of air and fuel mixture. Total cost of damage 500+ for a new radiator not including inconvinence and truma.

Having a mix feeling of the incident, I know who is the culprit, one who shall not be named. People around me told me to retaliate, tic for tact but I don't believe in fighting fire with fire. After all what doesn't kills me only makes me stronger.

My Lestari

2008-04-26T09:30:00.000+08:00

Mt bro brought home a kitten yesterday. She is soooooooooooo soooooooooooooo cute. I named her Lestari. What I can say bout her. Well she is a well behave kitten. She don't scratch people and she don't go running around.

I love her eyes. her fur white as snow. Wanted to name her susu ( milk in malay ) but Azlina my bro GF say Lestari is nicer. So my kitten name is Citra Lestari.

Lestari is also surprisingly toilet trained. She shit in the toilet right beside the drain. But she is a bit fussy with food. I still can't find what food she eats or like hope my bro will buy some cat food.

Custom Pizza!

2008-04-20T01:28:00.000+08:00

Finally I've done it!!! My 1st self made pizza with toppings specially cater to my own taste bud. It started with the sauce making, The half and hour of blending of tomatoes and mixing it with tomato puree before stirring it. To the dough tossing and finally the toppings ( cheese sausage, onions, mince beed, chicken and beef ham, shredded chicken, crab stick, capsicum and cheese)before heading into the oven.

I still have to improve on the shaping of the pizza as its not exactly round but a bit out of shape. The presentation wise is also not up to my standard. Taste and texture wise on the other hand is perfect. Crunchy on the crust, soft on the middle part and not stingy on the cheese.

Hmmm maybe I can make a surprise lunch for my future girlfriend with my new skill.

Job available!

2008-04-15T11:18:00.000+08:00

"Looking for, young enthusiastic, easy going, good sense of fashion, trendy and outgoing candidit to work as a personal shopping consultant. Interested candidit please email your resume with pictures attached onto it." - Casey Rockstar

Haha I'm in dire need to look for shopping friends. Everyone seems to be busy with their life lately. Either with work, relationship or school (ermm school... maybe we can scrap that hehehe!)Its boring going shopping alone you know. Very lonely and can be demoralizing. No fashion consultant to comment on the clothes I buy. No 'makan' partner to try weird foods. No personal photographer to take lots of pic. Not even a Karoke Idol Judge to listen to my horrid singing! Hmm wonder should I post an ad in Mocca.com?

Hmm this remind me something. I got to look for a personal gym instructor. Wonder when will my bike be fixed I'm missing Malaysia already. Danga Bay, City Square. Shopping Madness. Batam anyone? I'm craving for A&W.

Anyway I've got one item from my need list yesterday. Its the vodafone portable internet modem from M1. Its just 512mbp but I'm just trying it out for a mth. If its slow I'll upgrade to a faster speed. After all its just for me to show latest update my clients regarding the investment they are investing at. Well also for blogging purpose too.

I need shoes, Shoes and more SHOES!

2008-04-10T15:11:00.000+08:00

" Attention! Attention all units! This is not a Drill! Code RED! I repeat this is not a drill! Code RED! Casey Rockstar's wardrope is low, its time for shopping!!!!!"

Its going to be June the mid Year of 2008 and I seriously need to revamp my wardrope. Stock taking seriously need to be done! I have to catagorise my clothes for office wear, casual wear and 'uptown' wear.

I knoe my shoes stock is super low! I've only got slippers! I need casual shoes! I really have to plan my finance wisely. With a tight budget it time for me to use my talent. Smart Shopping.(Haha if i can't plan wisely then such a disgrace to be a wealth and finance graduate) There is like so many things to buy but so little money to spluge. But not to worry! I have a plan!!

Saw this Lacoste shoe white and lime green and I'm gonna get a custom levis or converse jack pursell shoe with my name on CASEY ROCKSTAR. My god I'm so vain hahaha..

The title is wide open

2008-04-09T16:43:00.000+08:00

The title for the league champion is still wide open as United failed to capitalized to take the lead and claim the league title.

I can't believe it I failed my class 3 TP test! I'm furious unable to capitalize on my league I had on Su. Its like watching this season English Primer League. Will it be United, will it be Chelsea or will it be Arsenal? Su failed that time and I manage to take the lead but I blew it by failing today!!! Now I have to wait till 5th May that is her TP. My re-test is on 20th May. Its neck to neck battle to the very end.

Now its back to hours of training in the circuit. Though I still can't believe I hit the curb which have never happened during my training and evaluation. Worst it was at changing direction which I'm good at. I expected I'll flop during the slop or my vertical parking but I did them perfectly. Thank god I didn't score points on public road thanks to the 3yrs riding experience. But no point crying about spilled milk. What makes a Champion is the ability to quickly overcome the setback and start getting back to the winning ways!

I wish you all the best Su. Don't take it hard. This is the spirit of competition. Not to look down on anybody. Its a motivation to push ourselves to do our best and give it all out for our TP. I love competition. BTW, the loser must treat the winner and Suci Karoke k! Oh ya and also buffet at Sakura eat all you can! Muhahahahaha.

P.S mazda RX 8 wait for me k honey bunny. I'll b getting you

My Karma

2008-04-07T17:45:00.000+08:00

As days goes by, I realized that God is full of fairness. As day by day I receive my punishment for my past mistakes, I realize that what ever punishment he is giving me is all base on what I've done to others. Karma that is what they called it.

I'm not going to complain nor am I going to ask why I deserve such punishment. I'm just going to accept it with an open heart for I know that this is my punishment for my past deeds.

Today I realize how it feels when someone you love compare and praise others. How it feels when they compare me with their new found lover. How it feels to have sacrificed a lot but yet not being appreciated. I'm not going to complain for I know others who have been in my situations for months and years but yet still remain silent about it. They just preserver and remained strong. How I look up at such people, to be able to hold on and remain strong while carrying on with their life.

Its also during such time like this that I really think of God. How arrogant of me not to think of him during my happy times. How embarrassing it is only to seek his help during such dire need. God, for you have gave me this punishment and test, pleases give me the strength and courage to go through it. I'm not going to complain or ask why I deserve this. I'm just asking for strength and courage to face this test.

You if ever one day you are going to bump into this blog, I beg you, do me a favor, don't praise to the world about him. Its killing me.

I had this weird dream yesterday. In that dream I was riding my bike at the same time looking up at the blue sky. In that dream I was crying as I look up upon the sky pleading to God to give me the strength and courage to keep on living and face this test.

The World Inside My Bag

2008-04-06T12:12:00.000+08:00

Welcome to the world inside my bag. A guy's bag. Seriously the contents of a person's bag have always fascinate me ever since I was a little kid. I remember how my mom would chase me around the house with a cane everytime I mess up her collections of bags. I remember mixing up her cash, changing their location from one bag to another imagining that I was famous pirate hiding my treasures or wearing her make up that I found inside her bags mimicking a chinese opera actor.

Now, the fascination of the contents of a bag runs deeper than just imagination and role play. Its like a database bank containing information of a person's character, his or her job scope and even their dirty little secrets. The contents of the bags can also be a survival kit for that particular person or vice versa. Hmmm that makes me wonder how Santa Clause manage to fit all the toys for all the kids in the whole world and still remains light. He should seriously think of marketing his bag and selling it. He will definately make APPLE world slimest laptop a laughing stock. I bet he can be the next Bill Gate just by selling them provide that the bags are not made in China!

While a bag can contain almost anything, for me there are nine must have things that must at all time be inside my bag. For me these 9 must have items are divided into 2 groups 'THE CLASSY ELEGENCE' and 'THE GEEK GADGETS'. Which both so strongly represent me ( What do you expect from a Gemini! )While the CLASSY ELEGENCE represent the perfectionist, organize and vain side of me who strongly believe that image is very important, The GEEK GADGETS is the completely opposite an alter ego you can say. To me the GEEK GADGETS potray the kiddy side of me. Happy Go Lucky and Lets Have Fun kind of person.

The 'CLASSY ELEGENCE'

An organizer is a must must for me, plain, simple and old fashion where you don't have to worry about flat batteries. No waiting for starting up or complain of lagging of system. Very useful especially when I'm having a conversation with my clients via the phone.

Ah any salesman bestfriend the calculator! For quick and effecient way to show my clients how much $$$ they can make within a certain period of time

My pride a Mont Blanc Pen! It potrays sucess and confident. Letting my clients sign legal documents with it is like assuring them "your investment is in good and safe hands."

While the Mont Blanc Pen is for signing, my Parker Pen are used for filling up those long lengthy documents. Known for their quality and reliability, that is what I aim to achieve when dealing with my clients. Giving them quality and reliable service.

The 'GEEK GADGET'

PSP the stress relieve. Frust wif fussy clients? Don't worry PSP slim is here to the rescue! Brings out the kid in me. Best of all its RED in colour which define my daring and outspoken character.

Everybody knows that PSP slim does not have a very good sound quality. And being a music freak. Gadget like this is a must. Especially useful when I need that added inspiration and motivation.

My pride and joy. Not liking the fuss of carrying many things around. My K850i is my trusty secetary. Arm with a 5mega pix cam, its an all in one for me. A phone cum digi cam. Ideal for a cam whore like me.

Ah a Sony Laptop. My workstation. An office away from my office. Style, Slim and Light. Doesn't cause shoulder ache when I carry it around. Very useful to show prospecting clients about their investment they are going to invest in. Also where I store my clients database.

A travelling modem! My laptop best friend. Whats the point of having a laptop if you can't serve the net. My doorway to unlimited knowledge and freedom. Without it how do you expect me to blog. Very useful to provide on the dot and up to date proof when requested by clients.

Meet Franck. Franck Muller

2008-04-05T20:37:00.000+08:00

It was love at first sight. A perfect couple, a perfect match. I have not met anything so closely reassembled to me. I know I HAVE TO GET IT.

They say by observing the watch a person is wearing, tells you a lot about the person's character. And I strongly agree with it. Thats why when it comes to buying a watch, I can get really really fussy. To me, the watch that I'm wearing tells people about my character and my feelings for the day. Thats why I used to have watches of different kinds and mind you its not those $10 Pasar Malam watches. You won't see me buying those kinds and wearing them unless someone bought for me.

While most watches I wear tells about my emotion and feelings for that particular day, Franck Muller watch well, it is in its league of its own. True to its brand Master Of Complication, Franck Muller watches is anything except simple. A watch that truly define my character.

Being a consultant, I strongly feel that image is very important. The first impression a person have on you will determine the success rate of you clinching the deal.

Like any other brands, Franck Muller have quite a number of collections. For me, I love two of his watches from his Cintree Curvex Collection, the Revolution Tourbillon and The Crazy Hour. One for office hour with my clients and the other for my after hours with my clients.

At first glance, the two watches are not LOUD, rather it looks surreal yet humble. I firmly believe as a consultant, we serve our clients thus we should at all times try not to out wear our customers. But if you take a closer look, you will notice their individual class. Elegant, sophisticated, classy and organized for the Revolution Tourbillon, well suited during the office hours while Crazy Hours on the other hand looks 'out of the box', dare to be different and naughty yet still retain its elegance. Well suited for the 'after hours session' with the clients. As you bring yourself closer to the face of the watch, you will notice its brand 'Franck Muller Geneve' and you will have this unspoken confidence in that person. Just like the brand known for its success, clients will will have this impression that you are not just a normal typical person, but rather a successful and unique person who can bring them success.

Hear Me Say

2008-04-05T02:28:00.000+08:00

"I'm sOwie bt i cnt. S_ _ _ _ _ q dn like the idea Of me lending it 2 u" I will remember this sms that you send to me.

Don't worry I won't discriminate you nor will I say anything bad about you. In fact if anyone is going to ask me to tell them what is so bad about you, I will smile to them and reply " There is nothing bad for me to say about her. What I have is just praises! "

But, do hear what I have to say, its just an opinion from me, as a friend who is unfortunately is also your ex. Don't worry, there is no right there or wrong, just an opinion from a concerned friend.

You, I'm hurt by your sms cause I know I have no ill intention, I just wanted to lend that VCD from you dats all, you don't have to meet me if he don't allow you to. You could just leave it in my letter box or put it in our secret hiding place where we used to keep our things together when we were together. You, I know I'm you ex but what crime have I done to deserve this? I'm not the one who sms you saying "I miss you", "I'm thinking of you" or "You I hv reached work". I know how it feels to be attach to a person and some other guy sms you saying all this. I'm not GOD to decide what punishment a person should receive. I'll just accept what ever test GOD give to me and I let him run the show. HE is the director, I merely his actor.

You, your father advice will always be in my heart. " Masing masing ada pendirian sendiri. Asalkan kita tahu batasan sendiri. " Let me translate; everybody have their own principle of how we lead our life. As long as we know our limits. Through this advice I hold and in cooperate into our relationship and till now I'm still holding it even though we are not together.

Our relationship ended due to misunderstanding and our egos. I'll definitely admit that I am at fault. You, I'm not trying to win your heart back nor am I trying to ruin your relationship with him. I just want you to know that you are a smart girl, a lady who have a mind of her own, who carry the same principle like me, why let him control you? Why don't you reason with him, convince him? I'm sure he can be reasoned. Shouldn't a relationship be base on trust? Or is he afraid that I will try to win you back? You know how loyal I hold on to our principle and through this principle as the foundation we built our relationship all this years. Like I say you are a smart girl, I also know how loyal you can be. I hope you will make a wise choice... Maybe one day you will stumble onto my blog and read this. Till then I'll be serving my terms for my crime. This is my KARMA that GOD is returning to me.

From a Friend who is truly concern of you and not expecting any more.
"Let me be the criminal. Let me be charge for the crimes I did and did not do. Someone have to take that blame so let me be that someone." - Casey Rockstar

3rd April 2008 7.15p.m

2008-04-03T20:33:00.000+08:00

3rd April 2008 7.15p.m will forever leave a mark in my life.

This evening incident was an eye opener for me. Like they say Police Force an EXTRAORDINARY Career. In my 2yrs in the force I thought I've seen and done everything that a policeman would do. From road accident, murder cases, sucide, chasing drug addicts, domestic dispute, car chase you name them and I can proudly say I've done that. But today its something special, something I know I won't be proud of, something that test a man's character and his ability to draw a line between what is right and what is wrong.

Never in my police career did I expect this to happen, to handcuff my own friend who I've been working with since the beginning of my Police Career, to escot him to the cell and hand him over to the prison dept. I won't name my friend to protect his identity and his family but I'll relate what did happen to serve as a reminder to others.

8.25p.m - Smiling at each other as a silent farewell, both of us knew each other feelings, though both of us put up a brave face to to hide any emotion we had, our eyes gave away our true feelings that is hidden inside. As I handed him over to the prison guards and as though as he could read my emotion he said something which will forever be remembered in my heart as I hold back any emotions I have. " Fahmy its ok, I know you are just doing your job. Its part and parcel of a Police Officer Life. Take care my friend and don't take your freedom for granted, enjoy it well" as he walk towards the ally to his cell glancing back at me for the last time.

Not many people will have this opportunity to handcuff someone they know and is very close with. For me, I just pray that this will be my first and my last.

I'm back to my best form

2008-04-03T14:01:00.000+08:00

"HARTFORD CUP TOP GOALSCORER! MUHAMMAD FAHMY from Business School!!"

Unbelievable simply unbelievable. The feeling to win both the cup and the top scorer award. Its like winning the Champions League and winning the player of the year award at the same time. Hahaha okok stop day dreaming... But seriously the feeling of the crowds cheering my team StyloMilo F.C and gals chanting my name its... like playing in the National Stadium of Old Trafford. But it wasn't easy. I didn't start well at 1st missing chances. But after I got a new shoe the table was turned. Every ball I kicked turn to goals how i wished i have bought the shoes earlier.

"My Life My Story (abstract from Chapter 7) - TALLER and STRONGER then BEFORE "

Life didn't go as well as I wanted but its taking a turn for the better. Became a bankrupt, lost my long time GF, hurt by love BUT I'm still standing taller then before. Like what they say WHAT DOESN'T KILLS YOU WILL ONLY MAKES YOU STRONGER

Getting a job as a Land Banker in Walton International is a dream come true. Meeting new people everyday, learning new stuff everyday, best of all I'm not confined to a cubicle inside an office which i seriously feel that it is bad for a hyperactive, creative, imaginative and money making mind of mine who can get easily bored of the same things over and over again.

Working as a delivery guy at Ritez Pizza well thats easy money. My job there well eating Pizza customize by De Chef me of coz, talking bout bikes and once a while taking fresh air by delivering pizzas ( can be counted with just one hand! ) Now tell me where else can you get paid for doing nothing? Not even the Police Force! (Speaking of Police Force Yes I'm counting down to ORD!!!!!!! )

School YES 1 more semester to go b4 i complete my Adv Dip and finally I can persue my Degree in any of the local Uni. Class 3 driving well my TP is on this coming 9th of April I pray that I'll ace it.. Please God I've been riding like a good boy for the past 3 Yrs please let me pass in one attempt I promise I'll try my best to be an F1 racer if not a rally car driver k or maybe a stunt driver but don't worry I'll only do it in the tracks just like my bike leave the racing in the tracks.

So you see I'm only getting better and surely one day you will see me driving my own RED Mazda RX8 and beside it my own Yamaha R6 both paid in full.

" Life of Casey Rockstar The Untold Story - (Chapter 23) My God Sent Angels "

At time I wonder what I've would become if God didn't sent the both of you to rescue me. I bet I won't be as strong as I am rite now. I'm impressed with the wonders God does. At times I admit I may be blinded and ungrateful to him coz I wasn't able to see the weird ways he works. I asked for an angel and he send me not one but two angels ( bet he know I'm a fussy customer so he sent me two of his darling angels to handle a difficult clients like me! )

Angel no 1. Smart ( errr well I'm smarter then her! ) well she is hardworking, have a heart of gold, patience, emo, love kids ( she teaches kids! Loves the way how her students are attached to her ), cute, trustworthy and caring. A kind of angel that can listen to my Theories and business plans all day long ( I'm not a night person no energy used up during the day till evening )She is also a good business partner ( I'm the brain wif all the out of the box ideas while she is the mouth keeping the clients happy )An angel who I can count on when I'm alone and in need. Loyalty is her strength and I dare to say that for we have went through thick and thin, bitter and sweet together for the past 2 years. Friends like this are hard to come by sticking with each other till the very end.

Angel no 2. She is my fellow Gemini, sweet, beautiful singing voice just like her sister, full of energy, my laughing partner, unpredictable, intelligent, love kids ( I remembered the time it was raining at IMM she manage to coax a little boy from not crying after his parents left him at the playground in the rain. The way she talk to the child left a mark in my heart. Something I didn't see in her sis ) She is a kind of angel who is direct in her opinion yet she will manage to phrase her word so that it is not hurtful to the person's ears but still leaving an impression to that person's life. An angel who I know I can be myself when she is around me.

These my angels are my tribute to the both of you who weathered the storm in my life, who protect me against the hurtful words of others, who lifted me up each time I fall to the ground. Gifts and Thank You are not enough to express my gratefulness to the both of you. I'll forever be indebted to the both of you my angels.

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I would like to thank my publisher for letting me abstracts some parts from my best selling autobiographies

1.My Life My Story
2.Life of Casey Rock Star: The Untold Story

I miss you

2007-10-24T01:26:00.000+08:00

Don't you know I miss you soooo much..
I miss the time we have together in the past..
Our laughter, our crap, our tears, I really miss you.

Remember the late night talk on the phone? The time i gave you tissue when you cried about Bakil your ex? Remember the time we lepak at marina ferry terminal?
I've looked for you high and low each time I went past Woodlands I secretly hope that I'll bump to you. I've send you msg, sms, call you, wait for you in msn, it seems like you are avoiding me.

I miss you my fren. I miss you soo much but i never dare to say it to you fearing you'll say that I'm emo and jiwang. I hope one day when I'm really gone you'll find this msg and know how much I really miss you.

Memories of our last night.

2007-09-22T02:35:00.000+08:00

Taken from NYSNC Drive myself crazy. This song reminds me of my past overheard it over the radio decide to share it.

Ohhh..oh...
Lying in your arms
So close together
Didn't know just what I had
Now I toss and turn
Cause I'm without you

How I'm missing you so bad
Where was my head?
Where was my heart?
Now I cry alone in the dark

I lie awake
I drive myself crazy
Drive myself crazy
Thinking of you
Made a mistake
When I let you go baby
I drive myself crazy
Wanting you the way that I do (Wanting you the way that I do)

I was such a fool
I couldn't see it
Just how good you were to me

You confessed your love
Undying devotion
I confessed my need to be free
And now I'm left
With all this pain
I only got myself to blame
ohhhhhhhhhhhh

(chorus)

I lie awake
I drive myself crazy
Drive myself crazy
Thinking of you
Made a mistake
When I let you go baby (Let you go)
I drive myself crazy
Wanting you the way that I do (Wanting you the way that I do)

Why didn't I know
(How much I loved you baby)
Why couldn't I show it
(If I had only told you)
When I had the chance
Oh I had the chance

(interlude)

Ohhhhhhh lalalalalalala
Lalala I drive myself crazy
Oh oh oh ohhhh(Oh so crazy)
lalalala oh oh oh ohhhh

(chorus)

I lie awake
I drive myself crazy
I drive myself crazy
Thinking of you
Made a mistake (made a mistake)
Let you go baby
I drive myself crazy
Wanting you the way that I do

I lie awake
I drive myself crazy (I drive, myself crazy, crazy, crazy...yeah)
Drive myself crazy
Thinking of you
Made a mistake
Let you go baby

I drive myself crazy
Wanting you the way that I do
I drive myself crazy
Wanting you the way that I do...

Pencinta Wanita

2007-09-15T11:05:00.000+08:00

Kutemukan dalam pencarian
Cinta sejati untuk hidupku
Kurang lebih yang seperti dia
Kuharap dalam cintaku

Ku tak mau menjanjikannya
Pasti bahagia bila denganku
Biar dia rasakan sendiri
Betapa gilanya cintaku

Reff:
Aku memang pencinta wanita
Namun ku bukan buaya
Yang setia pada seribu gadis
Ku hanya mencintai dia

Aku memang pencinta wanita
Yang lembut seperti dia
Ini saat ku akhiri semua
Pencarian dalam hidup
Dan cintaku ternyata
Yang kumau hanyalah dia

Ada Cinta and Ku menanti

2007-09-12T13:38:00.000+08:00

Ucapkanlah kasih..
Satu kata yang kunantikan
Sebab ku tak mampu membaca matamu
Mendengar bisikmu

Nyanyikanlah kasih..
Senandung kata hatimu
Sebab ku tak sanggup mengartikan getar ini
Sebab ku meragu pada dirimu

Mengapa berat ungkapkan cinta
Padahal ia ada
Dalam rinai hujan, dalam terang bulan
Juga dalam sedu sedan

Mengapa sulit mengaku cinta
Padahal ia terasa
Dalam rindu dendam, hening malam
Cinta.. terasa ada…

Sang by: Acha & Irwansyah
Written By: Nugroho

Ku menanti by Akmal n Aneja

dulu dikau pernah berkata
aku lah yg pertama dan jua akhirnya
namun tu semua sementara
untuk membuat ku semakin sayang padamu
sayang mengapa ini terjadi
aku tak sanggup lagi menghadapi

kini kau pergi tanpa pesan
aku yg merindu tanpa dirimu
apa salah dan dosa ku
hingga kau sanggup untuk meninggal kan ku

sayang hatimu di hatiku
sayang bila jiwa jadi satu
sayang dirimu dan diriku
telah menempuhi liku hidup ini

kumenanti dan tetap terus menanti
hingga kini dgn ketabahan hati
kumencari apa kesilapan diri
selama ini yg tidak ku temui

kumenanti bilakah kau kan kembali
hingga kini tiada berita darimu
ku harungi perjalanan hidup ini
sampai nanti bertemu di syurgawi

sayang hatimu di hatiku
sayang bila jiwa jadi satu
sayang dirimu dan diriku
telah menempuhi liku hidup ini

kumenanti dan tetap terus menanti
hingga kini dgn ketabahan hati
kumencari apa kesilapan diri
selama ini yg tidak ku temui

kumenanti bilakah kau kan kembali
hingga kini tiada berita darimu
ku harungi perjalanan hidup ini
sampai nanti bertemu di syurgawi
Ohhh..
ohhh...
ku harungi perjalanan hidup ini
sampai nanti bertemu di syurgawi

It ain't fun being a Villain

2007-08-04T18:28:00.000+08:00

It ain't fun bein a villain,
It ain't fun having to hurt other peoples' feelings.
I used to be in the receiving end. I should know that god damm well.
Back then I thought by hurting people to prevent myself from getting hurt was the right way. " Hey who cares as long as I don't get hurt! " That was what I initially thought. But little did I realize the guilt I have to carry around after each and every deed I've done. Vangence its just not the right way.

Now I'm seeking my path back. Finding the light that was long gone. Getting to the dark side is easy, its getting out of it is the hard part.

In My Shell

2007-08-02T13:00:00.000+08:00

In my shell safe as I could be
A paradise where only I can reach
Away from the hurt I've caused
Away from the hurt I've been in

In my shell safe as I could be
Hiding and running from something that is not meant to be
Leaving behind the painful memories
Leaving behind any emotions I may feel

In my shell safe as I could be
For that is where I want to be
To have some time to reflact my actions
That may have caused grief to others

In my shell safe as I could be
Sheltered from the politics I'm in
A solitute that I greet openly
Lost are the world of misery

In my shell safe as I could be
For that is the only place I'm left with
As I closed my door behind me
Opening up only when I'm ready

My 5 Sins and Temptations

2007-07-24T23:53:00.000+08:00

Cars is like a girl, a wife to car fanatic like me.. How you acessories and choose your car also reflect your personality.. Here is the list of 5 cars and who I relate them to.

Mercedes SLR McLaren

Taking a look at the SLR she reminds me of Eva Longoria the actress frm Desprate Housewives. Posh and class not forgetting its speed and power which to me describe 'naughty' just like Eva

Toyota Supra

Toyota. When people say Toyota, the 1st thing in everyone mind will be it is frm Japan. What best to describe Toyota Supra then Japan J-Pop Princess herself Ayumi Hamasaki.

Nissan 350Z

Ah Nissan another Japanese made car, one of my favourite. Sleek, stylish, elegant a real class. To me, Nissan have just created a godess. Fast and furiously elegant the 350z will never fail to recieve peoples' attentions jus like Victoria Beckham aka Posh Spice

Mazda RX 8

Ah my baby, my sweetheart, innocently sexy, mazda RX-8 is WOW! Her slim body with precise details matched makes her one of the sexy most cars in the market right now. Love the way Mazda design her two rear doors which opens backwards. Sexy n beautiful like Jessica Alba

Camero

Ah the Camero famously appeared in the movie Transformer. In the movie the camero can transformed into a mean fighting machine robot known as BumbleBee. How I wish it can really do that! And NO the Camero is not made in Japan like what the actor thought it was orginated from. Its an American made car. A car like this plus the hot sexbomb Megan Fox is all dat I need! Yup when I see this car she reminds me of Megan Fox who also acted in Transformer

I'm in love with a motard

2007-07-24T01:51:00.000+08:00

Ever since I first got a licence, I have always fell in love with a motard. A hybrid of dirtbike with road tyres, its power and roaring pipes have always captured my heart. I have owned a number of bikes, from dirt bikes to cubs to sportbikes currently GSX R 400. But my love of motards have always remain in my heart.

The motard scene in Singapore is slowly gaining its popularity due to regular events being held both in Singapore and Malaysia. Recently, the Dirt Bike Carnival held on 4th Feb 07 at Marina Country Club and the SIC AAIM 2007 Malaysian Motocross Championship held in Sepang on 24th and 25th Febuary.

I'm planning to get one maybe Suzuki DR-z or the KTM 4. Got to start saving!
By the way anyone who is interested to sell their motard feel free to e-mail me. Thanx!!!

My Shopping List

2007-07-23T01:35:00.000+08:00

1. Nokia N95
Cost: $600
Specs: 5 megapixel camera with Carl Zeiss optics
Bulit-in GPS mapping
DVD-like quality footage
View emails with attachment
Dimensions
Volume: 90 cc
Weight: 120 g
Length: 99 mm
Width: 53 mm
Thickness (max): 21 mm

2. Toshiba Portege R500
Cost: $2150 (wif vista buisness)
Specs: Intel Core Duo
2GB Ram
120 GB HDD
1.2GHz Processor

3. GSX 1000 '07'
Cost otr: $25000
Spec:Engine 999cc,4-stroke, four-cylinder, liquid-cooled, DOHC, 16-valve, TSCC
Bore & Stroke 73.4 x 59.0mm
Compression Ratio 12.5:1
Fuel System Fuel Injection
Dry Weight 172 kg (379 lbs.)
Fuel Tank Capacity 18 l

4. Nissan 350z
OTR: $158,500
Spec: 3498cc
Bhp/Top Speed: 294/250
0/100kph: 6.5